2020-- left

It was the worst year I've ever had

Know what? I lost many people whom I love so much in the year. I lost them. Either I remove them from my life or they remove me from their life. Perhaps they found the better one than me. I felt the truly heartbroken in the year, the real suffer and the scars deep inside my empth heart. Tbh, I love them so much from the bottom of my heart even if they don't love me but sadly I'm saying that I love them and I miss them. I miss the old them and old me. 

I'm healing right now, in the process. but trust me, I still remember our memories and I can't. I  can't stop crying when the memories came into my mind especially in the midnight because I can't forget them. 

But nowadays, I'm trying to heal and keep walking. And I slowly can stop asking 'why'. I pray the best for me, and for you. Thank you for existing and living with me even for a while. I appreciate those. 

Last but not least, stay safe wherever you are :)